clean up

i"ve deleted some entries here , i just felt that those entries were not suppose to be publish. I've dust off my blog.

Vision

I had vision, it's all about the place where i wanted to settle, where i wanted to build a home that i could call my own. It's a farmland where i would plant different kinds of fruitbearing trees like mango, atis, duhat, caimito, dalandan and kalamansi, obviously these are my favorite Philippine fruits, underneath the mango trees i would plant peanuts, i've heard from somewhere that underneath is the best place for peanuts. Vegetables will be part of it of course, there would be pechay, tomato, garlic, onions , tang-lad and more vegetables and fruits.

My home would be an american style, sitting pretty , the entryway will be filled with flowering plants, pine trees will guide your way to he parking place. It would be like the pathway going to the church in naujan Mindoro. Actually that's where i've got the idea.

The vision was so clear as if i was just standing in my place savoring the pleasure of a dream that turned into reality. I love the feeling. Besides it's been sometimes since i silently wish of something.

After my daydreaming, reality sinks in, first I need to have loads of money to turn my dream into reality , honestly right now i don't have enough resources to buy a farmland which i could turn into my dream place, not so long after i felt depressed. Then my mood change and i was no longer happy instead i felt like a lost soul.

Though i'm not giving up easily , i'm still hoping my dream place would be mine in time, i'll be working on it. When it happens i'll be looking back to this day where all the dream begun.

para sa tangang lalake at sa pretty girls

PARA SA MGA TANGANG LALAKE AT MAGAGANDANG BABAE TULAD NATIN Before, hinahabol kita pero di mo ako pinapansin. Tapos isang araw nawala ako, hinanap mo ako at tinanong, "Bakit ka nagsawa?" Ngumiti ako, "Hindi ako nagsawa. Natauhan lang." Pwede mo kong lokohin pero wag kang magpapahuli sakin. Pwede mo kong palitan pero siguraduhin mong mas mahal mo siya sakin. Pwede mo kong iwan pero siguraduhin mong kaya mo. Kasi pag ako sobrang nasaktan, wala ka nang babalikan. Ang Boys? Pag trip ka, magpapakilala. Kaibigan kuno hanggang pumorma na. Tapos pag nahulog ka na, ayun, goodbye na dahil sawa na sila. Pero dapat walang iiyak at smile lang tayo. Punyeta, anong silbi ng karma? I fell in love and got hurt but I didn't shed too much tears nor did I ask him to love me again. Instead, I stood up proudly and said, "Ganyan talaga ang magaganda! Hindi bagay sa t****!" Simple lang para hindi ka masaktan. Kapag minahal ka, mahalin mo din. Kapag ginago ka, gaguhin mo rin. Pero kapag umiyak ka, t**** ka! Ginago ka na nga, iiyakan mo pa? Pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo, wag mo siyang sisihin! Kausapin mo siya ng harap-harapan at sabihin mong, "Ingat, t**** ka pa naman!" Masakit pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo. Pero wag kang magagalit ng husto. Kahit papano may pinagsamahan naman kayo, diba? Kaya for the last time yakapin mo siya at ibulong mo, "Gago, kukulamin kita!" Girls, talo daw sayo sa mga boys? Papayag kayo? Sige, pag niligawan tayo, sagot agad. Pag iniwan tayo? Ok lang. Kapag sinabi nilang, "Uy, ex ko." Alam niyo sagot diyan? "Ay, ambisyoso." If the one you love doesn't love you back, don't get depressed. Just think about it for a while, maybe cry a bit then wipe your tears and say, "Ang weird naman niya. Di siya pumapatol sa magaganda!" You only got one life so live it well., one heart so take good care, one soul so keep it pure. One boyfriend? What a waste! Make it two or more! Sayang ganda natin! Pag sinabi sayo ng mahal mo na ayaw na niya sayo, hayaan mo lang. Wag kang iiyak at magpapakagago! Imbis na iyakan mo siya, ngitian mo lang at sabihin mo ang ganito, "So, pano? Bye na!Naghihintay na ang kapalit mo!" Who cares about break-ups? Oo nga, masakit. Makirot sa puso. Pero tandaan mo: a break-up isn't only an end to a relationship. It's also a beginning of a new one and an end to a living hell called "ex".

atlanta on top

nice view isn't it? well i took these pictures last dec 12,2005 onboard a plane going to atlanta. the view is fantastic soi grabbed my cam and freeze the image , thanks to my sony digi cam, i was able to catch it the way i want it. My feeling was kinda heavy when i saw this view somehow it lessens the heaviness i felt inside. by the way this is the top view of atlanta right before our plane landed.

clouds and clouds and nature

i really love clouds everytimeilook at them i felt so relax, you could even see objects with their formation. i took these pictures onboard a plane .

yeheeeyyyy delayed flight ko

time flies so fast, imagine it only seems yesterday when i was so busy packing my things for my annual vacation, after three months it was over. i am not complaining about coming back here it just that it seems so short for me.

speaking of vacation, in general terms it was great but of course there were problems and mishaps along the way. originally i was scheduled to go back home last Dec 07 ( not so sure bout the exact date) but then due to some weather problems i won't be able to catch up my early flight in San Franciso going to manila. Imagine the dismay ( was i really dismayed?????) i had when the delta representative told me that i won't be able to reschedule my ticket to the next available flight, our company agent has to do it. during that moment i don't know how i feel a little bit frustrated and a little bit glad for flight delays means more time with my boyfriend. so there i was after a few hours i was back at the port of palm beach, thanks to paul for picking me up, actually he is going to fetch someone that time i justcan't remember who.

going back to princess i stayed with ada in the 5th level, ada was very nice to me and to alex. I enjoyed her company and of course the time i've spent with my bf. on dec 11, 2005 i finally boarded the delta plance going to Atlanta, from there i took another delta flight going to sanfo, from there i boarded with Pal going to manila.

looking back i couldn't help but thank the flight delays , for i've realize na kung hindi dahil dun umuwi sana ako ng may tampuhan kami, i failed to mention earlier that the night before my original departure me and lex had a big fight over matters from the past. We almost broke up that night though we settled it, still doubts troubled me.

true talaga "some goods things happen out of bad situations"