Designer beddings!

It was finaLLY goodbye Palm BeCH Princess,due to poor management Princess wasnt able to sustain it's operaTION. The last set of crew were sent home last FEbruary 2010, my Ayella save me from the months of chaos most of my crewmates experienced in the weakening days of Princess.

Since im a single mom with no regular job, Ive searched for other things to sell online, luckily my former officemate's wife is into replicas of designer beddings. Personally I love the designs! so there i put it in my online store!

My buyers response was really good , never thought theres a huge market for replicas until I ventured into selling it.

BAGS, BIZ, ADDICTION!!!

I have never been a bag or wallet user,my friends could attest to that. I can leave the house without carrying anything, a pair of jeans with pockets is enough to hold whatever i have. Needless to say, Im not familiar with kikay kit.

Everything changed a year ago, i've realized i love buying bags, I dont use them really i just kept them , when i get tired i give it to my sibs. Familiar with those bags with freebies?? Im so gaga over it, usually i'd spend on something even i don't use/need it just to have the bag.

Last year, I decided to open my online shop,since i can't afford to buy every bag i wanted, just to keep it or give it away, that would be too expensive on my part. My addiction started with XOXO BAGS AND WALLETS!! I simply love it, once it caught my eye, i could not take my eyes away from it. It just simply captivates me.

My online shop is doing well ( i guess??)i never really keep track of my expenses, i just love buying and selling them, ironic for an Accountant like me. The most important thing is im happy with what im doing. i think im earning even a bit.

above are photos of bag tha i do have.

Decaf On top

I'm a self confessed coffee lover,but after yesterday's incident im not so sur eanymor eif i could still label myself as coffee lover. Still in the mess wiht Mr. SBA,i was doung my coffee when he said something " why drink coffee when you want it decaf?"I replied him with this? " How did you know im drinking decaf?? His reply was simple "Oh well decaf coffee is always place on top" , where i took my coffee.

Okay that's explains why it taste different,yeah i could taste it, it's decaf. He was laughing at me, imagine ive been here in the ship for more than five years, then it was only yesterday ive learned that " decaf coffee is always place on top".

anyway he relayed to me, mr. alcoholic anonymous ( a british friend of ours) doesn't know about this as well. Well that makes us two stupid coffee lovers.

How about you guys, do you know decaf is place on top??

"Lucky"

I was in the crewmess when ive seen Mr. spoiled Brat alcoholic. He's a Portuguese, currently living here in florida. We named ourselves alcoholic when my i erroneously deducted someone else's bar tab into his paycheck.

Aside from alcohol, we both love dogs, he owns a a female dog ( forgot the breed, named Jasmine. Last two weeks ago mr SBA went back to Portugal to help his Dad with some furnitures bought from US.

There he found a dog which he named "LUCKY" guess what breed it is a pure Potuguese
Water Dog , whoa just like the first pet of the UNited
States of America. According to him he found it on the street near a spanish neighborhood. He brought the dog to the vet to check if it does have a microchip on it, sadly it does not have anything, not even a dog tag that could identify the owners.
He wa so happy with this dog, i could see it in his face while he's telling me how he plays with him. According to him Lucky does not speak Portuguese, not even English so his guess, the owner might be a spanish family. Another thing he noticed, Lucky goes along very well with children, he thinks it could be a childs pet, he felt sorry for the loss of the family, though he feels lucky to find "lucky" on the street. Btw according to the vet LUcky might have been lost for 8-10 days base on his physical appearance.
Oh what a lucky dog "lucky" is coz this month he's coming here to the US to live with him, "lucky" will live the american dream , which many of us wishes to live,i guess this still holds true despite the crisis.

I am convinced mr. sba is lucky to find "lucky" on the street not just because he 's a very sweet and obedient dog , coz this breed cost a fortune in the US, ( according to mr .sba it cost here $5000.00). Lucky is also very fortunate to have mr sba as his new boss, coz he 's cute este he's such a caring person, as early as now he does have plans for "lucky". Well as for the orginal owners of "lucky" how unfortunate it could be, but i hope they'll find peace believing that their beloved pet is in the hands of a good person.

to get to know more about the Portuguese Water dog visit on the linked site.

Fire

We were up on the air when suddenly the captain announce we are goign back to manila due to soem technical emergencies. later on we were advice there was a fire somewhere in the plane. since im a seafarer the purser advise us to get off the plane, since we wont be able to catch our connecting flights which would lead us to missing our ship. My group decided to board the same plane as long as they could arrange us, our connecting flight upon arriving LA.

I dont know but im not in the mood to board that palne i wanted to go home but decided not to since hassle din hatid hatid sa airport. a few days after ive learned ive lost my auntand cousins in a fire in QC. My uncle who suffered from 3rd degree burn passed away after a few days.

It only seems yesterday, i was with tita, i could still see her smile, her energetic ways despite the difficulties life is throwing her. Her joyous disposition in life is contagious. it only seems yesterday that i was asking to fit a flipflops for her. tito on the other hand, i could never forget how he giggles when he introduced his new gf to me. I know he 's happy, od as it is we bumped into each other in NSO. I never thought it would be the first and last time that i would see him. Imagine sa dmai ng araw at tao sa NSO dun pa kami nagkita to think he came to our place twice that time.
Life is too short indeed, you'll never know whne god is taking us back.
heres alink to the video that was reported by gma tv. sadly they have shown the wrong pic of the female kid. it wasnt tmy cuz who was caught on fire, instead it was the photo of my cuz who was able to survive.
to my tito, tita, shower and carl, may your soul rest in peace. we love you!


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a valentine letter

happy valentines day to you!! Hope everything is well with you.

there are thousands of things i want to tell you, but since you decided to cut our communication guess i have to write it here. These thoughts have been lurking on my mind for the past weeks. I really want to tell you all these,but i wanted to respect your decisionas well.

Our lives was entangled in a very strange way, we drift into something that we barely thought of. it was not a love a first sight instead a lust at first shot! No regrets in my heart for what had happened. somehow the night ive met you, was the night of my redemption. Yes you save me from living a life of hell, you save from committing one of the worst sin ever. I never thought that particular night eventually will bring my life back.

i have loved so much, so much that i failed to notice i became so selfish and dependent on you. My eyes were blinded by so much emotions that i failed to notice ive forgotten to love myself, my family and the things i used to love and enjoy. Dreams were built with you in my mind, i was so focused on the future that i failed to live in the present. I thought it was you that God sent for me to live my life until our hairs turned grey. It was only in the end, ive realized God had much greater purpose why he brought you to me. The purpose that for the longest time ive failed to notice.

I had a great time in our short journey together. ive experience so much; falling in love without holding back, giving it all even if it hurts, to curse coz im afraid im loosing you, to humble myself, to think of someone before myself to build a dream that eventually turned into nothing. I have been happy that's why i had a hard time letting you go, i held back as long as I can, i chose to believe there's still a chance until i laid down my last card. still it meant nothing,nothing coz it was never meant to be me and you. Your purpose had been fulfilled, the time for you to leave came.
I was furious knowing that despite of everything i did still ive lose you. Ive kept, nourished the pain,hatred and regrets inside me for the longest time. i kept asking why and why it ended badly. I prayed a lot yet i continue to hold these negative feelings, i cant work i cant eat i cant function well, until i got so tired, i even cried in front of God, begging helplessly to heal me. it felt good but it did not last long, i went back to that crappy mood.

Until one night , while the cool breeze envelopes my body, in the stillness of the night a realization dawned on me. It happened coz it was meant to make me a better partner, a wiser individual and a stronger person. You were chosen to be with me on that particular night to be my mentor in handling relationship.You came across my life to make a big diffrence in me.That's the reason why you had to go now .. your purpose in my life had been accomplished.

I dont have any regrets, hatred and pain anymore, the moment i let these go, i felt so much peace inside me. I felt alive once more, i felt good looking forward to the things God will give my way evryday.Thank you so much for taking part in my journey here n earth, ill never forget all the lessons ive learned, ill never forget that once in my life ive met a person like you.

wherever you are right now i hope God will somehow let you feel that somewhere across the miles someone was so grateful coz of you. I pray that today, On valentines day may you have a happy and contented heart! thank you my friend for being one of the greatest teacher ive met in this life!

In the end!

it might took me a while to get over it
it might made me do crazy things
i might have been the girl who came after him
i might have been a pathetic loser
but it doesnt matter at all now
there's no more pain
no more hatred , regrets or grudges
all i have is a grateful heart
coz in the end ive learned so much
ive gained everything
and loose nothing!

The time has come

Today is right time for me to leave everything behind , time to let go of all pains anger and memories. Too much time had been wasted, too much money had been spent, too much energy had been burned, for things that does not really matter.

The time has come for me to love myself, to priotize the things ive taken for granted, time to appreciate the wonderful things life is offering me each day, time to appreciate the blessings God had bestowed, time to be grateful for saving my life from further destruction. It's about time to redeem myself.

Today i'm facing it with a bright smile in my face, with faith in my heart that someday ill meet the one God had been preparing for me. As early as now im grateful to God for that wonderful gift.
it's about time... to set myself free.

back to zero

Im sorry for what i did, for all the shouting and vile words i've thrown. Yeah maybe you just called to greet me on my birthday but the pain i still bear inside was pushing me so hard. You've done so much effort ,im aware that you've been trying to reach me for the last 3 days, then when you finally got hold of me all i did was letting you know how much i hate you. No i don't really hate you, the bitter truth is ive been waiting for your call, i miss you so much that it hurts.

I'm sorry for rractign so badly, i just need to cover up the feelings i have for you, i still you, i still want you but you've chosen another path, leaving me behind with questions and pain. I wanted to love you from a distance, i still wan to know how's your life going on now adays but if i let myself gets closer to you, it's liek letting you hurt me over and over again.

Now im in misery again, whatever defenses i was able to put up in the last few weeks was totally devastated. back to zero na naman ako. balik sa simula, balik sa sakit. Oh god i wanted to get this out of my chest.