hurricane Katrina

Wednesday august 23,2005 the evening cruise was cancelled due to hurricane Katrina, instead of sailing just 3 miles away from the port we sailed all the way to key west. The sea was rough but tolerable we were able to finish our report and payroll around 10:30 pm. During that nightSid one of our utility guy celebrated his birthday , after work i hung out with them for about 45 minutes, i haven't even finished my corona. i was so tired and sleepy so i decided to go to bed.

thursday 4:30 am i woke up so early that no matter how i try to go back to sleep , i simply can't. so i decided to start reading 3rd degree by james patterson. Around 6:00 am took a bath had my breakfast afterwards. i was so curios about the weather condition outside so i decided to take a look in the outside deck, gosh the wind was so strong that i have to pause several times before reaching the pool, where i could take cover while looking at the sea. a part of me was trembling for i know anything could happen to me while i was there, what if the wind would blow me off from the deck, would anybody notice me? Just the thought of me being a man overboard make me quiver. i stayed there more a moment until it begun raining so i decided to back to my cabin to continue reading and start cleaning my room.

Luch time i wen to the crew mess to eat and to hang out with several crew member, most of them are playing tong its sine i dont have any knowledge with the game i could not join them and ended up watching and chatting with them. After an hour i got tired that's when i remember my book and resume my reading in the crew mess, before we knew it it was 1:00am , imagine the day had passed me by just like that. good thing i was able to finish my book but still sleep was evading me. i was lying in my bed trying to sleep but i can't simply because the sea was so rough that i decided to sleep with my lifejacket beside me. Horrible thoughts of what could happen keep on flowing in my mind. I was even awaken for i thought i've heard some people running in the hallway with their lifejackets on. worst things come into my mind which i tried to push away. But the the possibility of it struck me and keeps me awake.

what if all of sudden things become worst? what would i do? what if God decided to take back the life He had lend to me, am i ready for it? where would i go heaven or hell? would god be delighted seeing me or He wont be able to recognize me? the thought of dying any moment made me ponder on these thoughts, which lead me to evaluating my whole life. No i am not yet ready to die that's one thing i'm sure of. i still have a lot of things and attitudes to correct. i am not yet ready as simple as that. Before i realize it we are about to dock when i woke up.
At last hurricane katrina had past so are the strong winds and rough seas but the things i had realized stayed.

sometimes out of bad situation we were able to focused our thought on far more important things in life, like death and salvation. Thanks you katrina , you may have been a disastrous hurricane but somehow you made a difference in me.