I miss you

I dont know why im feeling like this, it was me who decided to stop our communication, but why im in pain right now? why do i expect that somehow you might make an appeal and say " let straigthen things out". Deep inside im aware you wont, you simply wont come after me. maybe this realization really hurts me.

today i started my day with you in my mind, thinking how's you life nowadays.Every minute of my life im wishing that somehow you'll remember me, somehow you'll consider giving us a chance.

I miss you badly, so badly that even in my dream i see you and your friends. ahh my heart is simply longing for you.Tears still fall every now and then in my eyes, i still stare blankly in my ceiling night after night. I stil smoke a lot hoping in every puff of smoke that comes out in my lungs goes with it is a tiny part of the pain i bear inside. Still everything is the same night after night , day after day.

sometimes i feel like running, running away from all of this, i will run until i get far, far away from your memories that haunts me every second of my life.How will i do this? how can i overcome this ordeal? you told me i am a fighter , what you failed to notice is how weak i really am when it comes to you.

I love you, i wanted to tell you this, i wanted to email you and let you how i feel, but im afraid that you might say "sorry its too late",or afraid that youll reconsider things just to comfort me. No i dont want that, i want you to feel inside your heart that you truly love me, sadly this is not our case.

so i will just keep on writing my feelings here for you, i write and write, i will not get tired of stroking my keyboard until i would say "im finally over you".

Tell me How

How do you say goodbye
To the one you love the most
How do you let go
When your heart says No
How do you ease the pain
When someone decided to go
How do you comfort yourself
When you are longing for him

How to heal the pain
when you know the cure is only him
How do you accept when things is over
When your heart still hold on

How to be happy for him
When deep inside you are dying
How do you pick up your life
When you you’ve already built it around him

How do you bring back your self esteem
When it shattered into tiny pieces
How do you stop your tears
When it’s the only way to lessen your burden

Please tell me how
So I could get out in misery
Tell me how
So I could just set you free
Please show me how
So I could free myself from this pain