I miss you

I dont know why im feeling like this, it was me who decided to stop our communication, but why im in pain right now? why do i expect that somehow you might make an appeal and say " let straigthen things out". Deep inside im aware you wont, you simply wont come after me. maybe this realization really hurts me.

today i started my day with you in my mind, thinking how's you life nowadays.Every minute of my life im wishing that somehow you'll remember me, somehow you'll consider giving us a chance.

I miss you badly, so badly that even in my dream i see you and your friends. ahh my heart is simply longing for you.Tears still fall every now and then in my eyes, i still stare blankly in my ceiling night after night. I stil smoke a lot hoping in every puff of smoke that comes out in my lungs goes with it is a tiny part of the pain i bear inside. Still everything is the same night after night , day after day.

sometimes i feel like running, running away from all of this, i will run until i get far, far away from your memories that haunts me every second of my life.How will i do this? how can i overcome this ordeal? you told me i am a fighter , what you failed to notice is how weak i really am when it comes to you.

I love you, i wanted to tell you this, i wanted to email you and let you how i feel, but im afraid that you might say "sorry its too late",or afraid that youll reconsider things just to comfort me. No i dont want that, i want you to feel inside your heart that you truly love me, sadly this is not our case.

so i will just keep on writing my feelings here for you, i write and write, i will not get tired of stroking my keyboard until i would say "im finally over you".