changes in my life

Due to our frequent fights, i've come up with a list of habbits, attitude or whatever you call it tha i need to change:

I will quit smoking: you never ask me to stop it, but i'll stop it anyway, for my health and for you.

Drink Moderately: well you frankly restrict me from drinking ( alcoholic beverages of course) if your not around or i could just drink with randy. Well i decided to just do it if you are with me and i will drink moderately. Again i'm doing this not just for the betterment of our relationship but for self improvement as well.

Stop going out with the ex boylets: you might not explicitly told me but i know why you are giving me cold shoulders lately, it was because you saw me drinking with ace the other night. for me he was a thing from the past but if us being together in any occasion freaks you out, fine with me i won't be hanging out with him anymore. i'm doing this for us.

keep our Problems between us: i'm really guilty of this one, things gets a lot uglier for i let someone know what's going on between us, most especially our problems and misunderstandings. We are two mature people i guess we arecapable of solving our own differences.

keep my promise: no matter what it takes, i should keep every word i've given you.

don't push: yeah most of the time i push you to your limits, i almost emptied your patience. you been patient enough to my every whims but i always wanted more, i never get satisfied . i always weanted things to happen exactly how i want it, i never even consideryour feelings. It's gonna be a two way traffic this time.

committment: You been asking this word from since day 1 but i just can't give it to you. You are right about last night i am afraid of this word, for i don't want to change my life and the way i live it, but i can't afford losing us just becuz of being afraid and selfish. If you will ask me again about it, i'll give it a shot ( my bestshot everrrrrrrrrrrrrrr)

hoping with this self change our relationship would be better. i know you don;t believe everytime i profess my love, but i really do love you. stubborn lang talaga ako just like you.